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My heart shattered... Into billion pieces today...
im feeling ultra saddness...
im feeling ultra down...
im feeling ultra moodiness...
i suck...
ii dno whatapos;s going on..
ii felt so sad im feeling terrible now...
im all numb..
all ii know is, iim heartbroken...

"but some stuff just unfair which is bothering quite some times"

a sentence can break my heart into billions or even zillions of pieces..
ii dint know im being unfair to u....
seriously, ii tot ii was so lucky to have u.. u are happy for what we are today......
never did ii expect myself to be so unfair to u.....
is this the reason why we are together??
do u love me at all?
a little bit?
or..?

unfair... Are we playing a game?
is there a rule to follow?
why is it an unfair game..? whyyyyyyyyy..........
game = us? us = game? unfair to u?
iim selfishhhh.. Ii knw........

ii knw... Ii knw im nothing but shit.. Ii knw no1 loves me at all..... Im feeling sad............... Disappointed in myself..........

canapos;t ii have someone to love me wholeheartedly w/o any requirements? ruleS? im a failure in which no1 loves me at all....

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